I'm going back to work next week.
I've been working from home since last March. Now that I am about to go back out into the world, I took some time to journal about how I have been feeling about the past (almost) year, and more specifically, how I spent this time*.
These last 11 months have been challenging and amazing at the same time. This time forced me to slow down. It forced me to appreciate so much. At the same time, it also revealed to me how selfish I can be. I would get upset if I called/texted to check on people and felt that I wasn’t being checked on too. I had to realize that just like I was trying to get through the pandemic in my own way, so was everyone else. For some people, it has been an easy process, and for others, not so much. These last 11 months have really helped me to sit with myself and figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life. The experiences I have had in 2020 were both lessons and blessings.
And now, I’m going to start stepping back into my old life.
It makes me slightly nervous. Not so much because there is a pandemic still going on-- but because I created a momentum that I am not ready to let go of. I’ve created new routines that I really enjoy. I’ve created new routines that my husband and FurBaby have definitely enjoyed and will definitely miss now.
I shouldn’t have to completely give up what I’ve started. But I also realize that having everything completely as I have enjoyed it these last 11 months isn’t balanced or serving my best good either. I now have to create a new balance; a life that helps contribute responsibly to our current life together, and yet still pushes us closer to our future dreams and desires.
Balance.
It’s something I’ve worked on for the past 4 months after my knee surgery, both at physical therapy and in my own yoga practice.
Now, I get to find it out in the world.
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*My days were spent…
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